EK NAZAR

Pehli Koshish -

Here it all where it started. Days passed on the same routine and then cultural activity programs started in our school the first was SCIENCE EXHIBITION it was year 2003 well i was not a active participant in any of those cultural activities i was shy introvert kind of person but i realise if i manitain like this i could never come close to her because i always feared talking to her well many will say what to fear in talking to your classmate but when that classmate become your one sided love you feel same you start fearing even we fear to talk on a genuine reason fear of  loosing her if in case she felt bad and so on i hope the one's who are really reading this might be knowing  this fear very well coming to the day before 3-4 days as usual when a program to be conducted in school we were allowed to stay and prepare and depart late for home i participated in the fair just because of her so i could stay after school hours and watch her you know (hum kitna bhi dekhe unhe jee to bharta nahi tha) :) and then one day i got a reason to talk to her i called her Riya i was alone outside the classroom in the corridor where she was entering from outside in to the corridor alone i just called her riya but she didnot listen second time i didnot had guts to call her again she went to her section i was in c section and she was in b section and here come our fair which all went good my project exhibition was based on hydraulic bridge based on london bridge never thought will   will really visit London Bridge in London in future. 

Gussa bhi pyaar bhi:

Days moved on routine was as usual  dur se dekho aur dekhte hi raho here comes the Annual Function well here i didnot participated because i was not a dancer or singer moreever i really had stage fear 

days passed i use to stare at her while she use to go and come for dance practices some time during the leisure periods i use to go and watch their practice but luck never was with me because the girls use to close the doors n windows during their practice soon i realise iam going to shoot complete annual function on my camera but those days we dont have smart phones or smart camera only the camera man use to have the big bulky camera slowly i did realise she knows that iam staring at her always now she started behaving uncomfortable whenever i was around so i started avoiding staring at her from near but never stopped because you can never control yourself when you are in love and you cannot live without watching her her group dance went well and luckily i got pictures of her from one of my friend camera his father was a cameraman during the function many friends approached me for pictures and yes she to saw my pictures which were taken she asked me her picture but i did not gave her as it was only one with me i thought might this picture can bring us close together but my luck was not with me she didnt even cared and never asked or talked regarding the picture again with me but one day during circulation of pictures i came to know she took her pictures i did not asked her for return 

Slambook:

Hardest part of the school life is when you say good bye to your class mates as we dont know where we all meet next in our life time and the years spend together we grow till now really hurts saying gud bye 

soon every friends started sharing slam book for autographs we use to read daily and i was very much interested from the slam books which comes from section b once i got her slam book which was with one of her friend i was holding the book as if i was holding her hand wow.. just amazing feeling that moment now i did realise i have to let her know that i am in love with her with less guts i pen down my feelings on the last page of my slam book and i wrote.

on 20 april god has send me an angel..( sorry could not write complete sentence due to privacy)

her birthday was on 20th april i circulated my slam book in section b so my feelings could reach her and yes i was lucky she read those lines and soon i was going to confirm on this her friends started laughing seeing me and ya that behaviors does some how stated that they all knew for whom i wrote she never had eye contact since then with me she started changing her way or vision when i was around and that one day.

after school departure i went home me and my friend on the way he said why dont you talk to her try by giving slam book to her i went home and came back to school with little bit of courage and went to her where she and her one friend were waiting for the auto by which they use to go home i went to her and asked her regarding the picture to return back and before i thought of giving her my slam book she just started why do you need my picture i know what have you written in your slam book and its for me i know that ...........i cannot write here what next happened or more what we had conversation i said no issue keep the picture without giving her slam book i came back home while on way i was literally sad and nearly cried totaly heartbroken how can one who knows that the some one who love us how can we broke their heart with such heart breaking words i was depressed whole night next day i didnot go to school

Final Bidai........

Coming soon.